Unworthiness!

“My choice early in life was either to be a piano player in a whorehouse or a politician. And to tell the truth, there’s hardly any difference.”

Harry S. Truman

Spent Christmas Eve in a reflective stupor!

Had completed reading my living legend’s book entitled Beast Too: Dead Man Writing. Left me emotionally exhausted, drained, and fatigued from the innumerable examples he cited of “unworthy” political associates and professional con-artists that he had unsuspectingly supported throughout his impressive career and life.

Gave me a memory jolt!

Had me reminiscing about an “unworthy” political operative whom I had revered, idolized, adored, and pledged my undying support and unwavering loyalty to like a love-sick puppy. Discovered, much to my shock, to my amazement, and to my chagrin, that my reward for my dedication was being “kicked to the proverbial curb” once he had achieved his political victory.

Should have read Lucius’ incisive book first!

Would have saved myself the expenditure of time, money, heartache, and sweat equity. Learned from Mr. Gantt that “unworthiness always has us looking for the catch, the angle, and the small print.” Will keep that nugget upfront and foremost in my memory bank in the event “Mr. Selected Amnesia” requests my donations, my vote, my endorsement, and my help during the 2015 election cycle!

Can’t wait to show him a piece of my double-wide posterior!

“Why is this thus?

What is the reason of this thusness?”

Artemus Ward

Needed a surgeon’s scalpel to repair the hurt and the pain my daughter’s broken heart received on Christmas Day. How does a parent explain to an innocent child the “unworthiness” of being intentionally excluded from her relatives’ Christmas and birthday list?

What vernacular does a mother use to explain why some adults are two-faced jackasses, revengeful, conniving, wicked, evil, possesses ill will, and harbors spiteful vendettas? Give me the vocabulary to explain to my child the tragedy of being flimflammed.

Need a recovery therapist!

My daughter’s traumatized queries triggered memories of my past sadness and disappointments as I recalled year-after-year of often gazing at the mailbox in search of gifts, presents, acknowledgements, or even a cheap Chinese trinket to come from my dad on my birthdays, Christmas, graduations, or weddings.

Heck, my sisters and I often “wished” that we were his step-children instead of being his biological children because, without hesitation, he and my step-mothers always bestowed presents on his wives’ children while his three daughters languished with nothing!

Why is this thus?

Dialoguing and objectifying with my daughter’s inner child and adolescent soul became my utmost priority this Christmas. Gingerly, I helped her to grieve about her abandonment without subconsciously aiding, abetting, and stoking her fury, contempt, animosity, repulsion, bitterness, and hatred for the perpetrators of her sorrow.

Slowly, she released her anger, wiped her tears, and then methodically reclaimed the joy that her dad and I had created for her. Admittedly, it took an “act of congress” and a great deal of restraint to keep my crocodile tears at bay!

What is the reason of this thusness?

Daughter, getting to the heart of the matter, your journey won’t present you with a study guide and an instructor’s manual. As you travel this continuum called life, you will engage lots and lots of unsavory and “unworthy” people who are void of a conscience, feelings, or divine grace as they will frequently challenge your operational beliefs and sensibilities.

Just be sure to hit the “ignore button” because everyone that you meet will not warrant the essence of your vivacious uniqueness——–and that includes family members, so-called friends, or even your ignorant foes regardless whether they inhabit a whorehouse, the statehouse, or an outhouse!

Furthermore, when you are a couple of years older, and with great joy and pleasure, you will have my permission and my blessings to show your family members, your so-called friends, and your ignorant foes a piece of your double-wide posterior, too!